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Changes need to be made
It’s been WAY too long since I’ve blogged. I owe you all an apology for that. Today I went out for a training walk and I began to think. (That’s always dangerous.)
CHANGES NEED TO BE MADE:
As I was walking I realized I’m quite unhappy with my life.
I love the fact that I’m a teacher, however I’m not at all happy in my current position.
I have no social life. Really, I spend weekends doing lesson plans or working on some project by myself. (Whether it’s making candy, or printing invitations, etc.)
I don’t like where I live — I love my parents, don’t get me wrong — but I’m not happy living here. I need my OWN place. A place that represents me, I place that invites me to be ME.
I don’t like the way I look. Let me rephrase – I don’t like the fact that I’m fat.
So what changes are going to be made?
It seems like everything hinges on me getting a new job. Once I get a new job:
- I’ll have a teaching position I want
- I’ll move to wherever that is (having a place of my own) or being able to AFFORD my own place, even if the job is nearby
- I’ll be able to become settled, I’ll feel safe enough to make friends, join organizations, even be open to love. Right now I’m afraid of that- because what if I move soon?
The only issue not “solved” by getting a new job is the shape of my body. That is something that I can get started on right now. It’s the main reason that I started this monumental journey and it’s time I refocus on that. I’ve lost sight of that because I’ve been so overwhelmed with finding ways to raise the money I need. I get tied up in projects and lose sight of everything else. I need to split my focus. I need to make ME a priority. So starting tomorrow I’m back on schedule and would appreciate any encouragement you can offer me.
If there is anyone that is able to help me with Pink Pear event planning – such as writing envelopes, or getting me email addresses so I can send out invites, I’d appreciate it. Also – if you know anyone who wants to golf in our outing or might be interested in being a hole sponsor, please send their info my way! Thank you!
p.s. updates will be made more frequently, I promise.
3 Responses so far
Rachel
April 11th, 2010
5:23 PM
Making yourself a priority is MOST DEFINITELY one of the most important things you can do right now, especially in trying to lose weight and get fit and especially since you seem to have quite the hectic schedule! I bet that once you set aside some time for yourself every day, whether it be for reading, blogging, meditating, exercising, etc, you’ll find yourself in a happier place! I make myself a priority by setting aside time in my schedule to attend Weight Watchers meetings weekly and I always leave feeling a little refreshed! I promise you’ll find yourself feeling better about yourself…and that always leads to success!
marlene
April 11th, 2010
5:39 PM
Being a teacher is one of the most important jobs out there. You may not think you are appreciated but you are by your students and the parents . You need to be not so hard on yourself young lady. The world is a big place and you have so much to offer. Do not get discouraged about your weight. It is a process that we all have to adjust to. You can do it. Put aside some time each night for just you and you will see what a difference your will feel both emotionally and physically. So girl get the mind set and go.
Good Luck to you!!
Kelly
April 14th, 2010
9:51 AM
Megan,
I think what you are doing is fantastic. It has taken me so long to realize I need to make myself a priority. It all started with finding the right friends and not ones that were toxic. That was a hard and long lesson to learn but, I’m glad I have. I’m still trying to keep “me” as a priority. I really wish I lived closer maybe we could help and inspire each other (atleast I could help with your event).
Just know you have a supportive fan in Florida!
Kelly
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